I donno where i'm going, but i like the direction!

       Just saw Katrina on a fun trip with her tele-mom in the new Titan ad...! Loved the tagline that followed which is also the title to this post. Cool eh? Kinda love the feel to it cos there's more to the meaning. Cos that's kinda the story of my life. But is it everyone's ??? I somehow never know where i'm going.. where my path will lead me to.. whether it has a dead end or its like a never ending road. But i ve come in terms with the mysterious ways of life.

       Learning to enjoy the journey rather than wait for the destination to be happy! Good enough? I find some people who seem to know exactly what they are doing and where they're going with it. So much clarity? That must be a great feeling. Would love to feel it sometime. But do they enjoy the ride as well... or are they anxiously waiting to reach their goal? I donno... perhaps, never will..! Meanwhile, i rather have my fun with the mystery My future has to offer me! :D

       Well... that said... I am totally bored right now. No cooking today since there's too much in the fridge to finish up!!! N there's never something worth WASTE-ing in my family... Mommy rules! N she's right.. A penny not wasted is a penny saved. So that leaves me with time for other things. But what 'thing' do i do in this biting cold? Have the paints and brushes bought the other day to make a name plate for dad to hang outside in the place of the plain paper print!!! Felt his name deserves a more majestic platform than that. So i guess I ll get started on that now.

       Mom's watching Modern Family on tv. I like the fact that she enjoys watching english flicks and series and not just the typical saas-bahu serials. We never have a remote fight.. ever! It's always 'Mom n Me' vs 'Daddy' :D And u can guess who wins... Mum's the word! Hehe.. As dad likes to call it... V are his Gang of girls...! Love it when he calls us that. Cos behind every fight we have, there's that unsaid happiness of being together.. be it fun or fight... Or should i call em fun-fights! As long as it brings in the satisfaction of togetherness, we dont really mind. We donno where we're going, as long as we are together, we love the direction! Modified and cooler? Fits us... Toodles...!
       

The freaking never ending TO-DO list keeps her awake!

       The familiarity of the things back home feels so warm this winter. As i sit indoors and look around my home, nothing much has changed for the past 21+ years except the people. We are growing older.. and wiser? Err! I donno about that.. haha.. :D How often do we get a chance to mend stuff in time? A stitch in time saves nine right? What if u start stitching after the ninth... Holds good??? I truly hope so.

       I think i have stitched pretty many holes in the blanket of my life. And m making sure it doesnt tear anymore. U dont have to stitch it up if you dont let it rip at the first place right! It's such a happy feeling having control on our lives. I look back and feel stupid. But luckily my looking back days are over. Looking forward is the new 'IN' thing for me... What's done is over and what is yet to be done is my new 'TO-DO' list. Checking off items on my list is pure joy. I work now so that i get to mark DONE on my TO-DO! Cute? :P

       One of the many things i always wanted to do and never did? Cooking...! On my own... and with style! DONE! Tastes great too... I am surprised! Pleasantly...! So are Amma and Pappa... Amma is just glad to be off kitchen for a while and enjoys being served. Something she's been doing since.... Um! Forever? She deserves her little break. And Pappa? He's just the most adorable person i ve ever met all my life.. and not just cos he's my father. I remember him fight with mom and eat the Amoeba-shaped Chapatis i made as a kid, half-burnt and totally un-edible. He literally relished it. Every bit of it. Cuter?

       I watch them sound asleep at times and my eyes moisten up. They look tired now. They look old. Years of hard work, slogging, worrying, saving. All this for? Themselves? No... I wish the answer was Yes... But its not and i know it never will be. It will always be for their little princess- Me..! The princess who's not little anymore. I look at myself and i realise i've grown. I've grown old enough to assume certain responsibilties...! But have i... No.. Not yet.. Not much... But i must and that is what i intend to do now.

       Someone rightly put it to me once never to consider anyone GOD-like in life. Indian customs and traditions portray our Parents as God. Right in a way. But sometimes it's too much unknown pressure on a parent isn't it? For one, i have always had this undying confidence in Pappa that NOTHING... u name it... there's NOTHING my dad cannot handle or deal with. This assumption has kept me protected and unknowingly i ve depended on Him so much that he is handling the extra pressure... again unknowingly!

       This sleeping Lioness is wide awake now. And there is no time for sleep until my hunt is over! Heavy words? Wont sound so when i tell you i am getting a good 10 hours sleep daily! Cutest? Haha... It's getting chillier every passing moment. I sit at my desktop all covered up and cosy in my blanket(with no holes) with only my hands exposed to the cold on the keyboard. And they seem toooo reluctant to be out there longer. So i better sign off now before they decide to freeze!

      Miracles happen folks... It's happening.. like.. right NOW!