"You wished for a great life..
But what you created within is just gloom..
Why this melancholy, why this strife..
When it is also within YOU to bloom!"
How often do we have a complete change-over? No, i'm not talking about a make-over. That is something you can get by possessing a thick wad of cash. But as we know, the most valuable matters cannot be bought. They have to be earned. Just like your respect which has slipped away, or someone's trust that you have lost. What about the deeds you have done in the past... the selfish ones? It's not easy to realize your mistakes. Even more difficult to try and mend them. And sometimes next to impossible to actually change yourself, coming out of your comfort zone. It's a Herculian task coming clean, accepting your follies and embracing the consequences.
It's a crawling process. There is no guaranty that a changed person will be accepted any soon or chances are high for never. The changing action requires courage. Acceptance of the fact that the change to be brought in oneself might never be reciprocated is very difficult. But if that first hurdle is crossed, things get a little easier, for you are not scared, expecting good.. at the same time mentally prepared for the unexpected!
Whatever be the consequences, change for the good always brings peace. The inner joy of doing something right floods your life with unseen confidence and ability. Some days back i was having a heart-to-heart chat with my elder cousin and a few words of advice she gave me just ringed a bell...! It's still ringing in my ear, compelling me to pay heed. She said, "Don't hold your breath over anything ever!" It was so true. In an instance i came up with more to it. When you hold your breath over something/someone, and it/they doesn't/don't come true, then it will suffocate you and make your life hell, because you just won't LET GO!
Letting go is really really hard sometimes. The plethora of emotions entangle you, trapping you in its web of pain, misery and sadness. Then even if you try letting go of your breath, the emotions crawl all over you forcing you into a state of hopelessness. Loneliness is not too far... it comes clinging to you and you shelter it. It befriends you, you rely on it. And soon you will not know when it overstayed it's welcome!
And the story after? Well... the weak-hearted collapse, give up, brood, whine and cry over the pathetic turns of their life. But if you can find even a little pinch of strength and courage in you. You'll set the loneliness packing their bags, or better, you'll move out and move on! You'll learn to hope, never to lose it again. You'll learn to tone down your emotions, and not be overwhelmed. You'll let go of the breath you've held forever, and take in a fresh current of air within you, flooding your senses with the gift of peace, relief and tranquility.
If you look at any side of a closed room with a fresh outlook, you'll discover the unseen, hidden, windows of opportunity, waiting to be found by you. I like to believe that God created lots of windows for every person. But he kept it hidden. so only the people willing to work hard and be brave would find it. A change, a discovery like this can turn anyone's life. If the people we love and care observe and appreciate it, it's the best gift you would ever receive. And if they don't.. well, with a little hope and a lot of faith, who knows.. Miracles might happen!
Again...
"Don't judge me by my past, i don't live there anymore."
