Do and think not.. Think, then do!

 Moments of past joy
Hovers over present gloom
Nostalgia seeps

Bundle of sweetness
Precious memories bring smiles
Beautiful bubble 

Love for past

Present mistakes haunt

No closure

Do and think

Repent regrets, so,

Think, then do!

This Haiku is written for the Haiku Heights. The prompt for this week is 'JOY'.

You still expect amnesty? - A Haiku.

They sin with the sun

Begging forgiveness by night

Expect amnesty?

Some people make mistakes, knowingly or unknowingly. When the folly is realized, some apologize and others don't! I believe in forgiving and forgetting. But what when people commit mistakes all the time. Over and again. Not genuine ones. The ones which they commit taking others for granted. Knowing they'll be forgiven. And when after a saturation point, forgiveness is refused.. they still fight for amnesty? Seriously?


This Haiku is written for The Heights of Haiku - April 2012. The prompt for today is 'FORGIVE'.

Don't judge me by my past... I don't live there anymore!

"You wished for a great life..
But what you created within is just gloom..
Why this melancholy, why this strife..
When it is also within YOU to bloom!"

How often do we have a complete change-over? No, i'm not talking about a make-over. That is something you can get by possessing a thick wad of cash. But as we know, the most valuable matters cannot be bought. They have to be earned. Just like your respect which has slipped away, or someone's trust that you have lost. What about the deeds you have done in the past... the selfish ones? It's not easy to realize your mistakes. Even more difficult to try and mend them. And sometimes next to impossible to actually change yourself, coming out of your comfort zone. It's a Herculian task coming clean, accepting your follies and embracing the consequences.

It's a crawling process. There is no guaranty that a changed person will be accepted any soon or chances are high for never. The changing action requires courage. Acceptance of the fact that the change to be brought in oneself might never be reciprocated is very difficult. But if that first hurdle is crossed, things get a little easier, for you are not scared, expecting good.. at the same time mentally prepared for the unexpected!

Whatever be the consequences, change for the good always brings peace. The inner joy of doing something right floods your life with unseen confidence and ability. Some days back i was having a heart-to-heart chat with my elder cousin and a few words of advice she gave me just ringed a bell...! It's still ringing in my ear, compelling me to pay heed. She said, "Don't hold your breath over anything ever!" It was so true. In an instance i came up with more to it. When you hold your breath over something/someone, and it/they doesn't/don't come true, then it will suffocate you and make your life hell, because you just won't LET GO!

Letting go is really really hard sometimes. The plethora of emotions entangle you, trapping you in its web of pain, misery and sadness. Then even if you try letting go of your breath, the emotions crawl all over you forcing you into a state of hopelessness. Loneliness is not too far... it comes clinging to you and you shelter it. It befriends you, you rely on it. And soon you will not know when it overstayed it's welcome!

And the story after? Well... the weak-hearted collapse, give up, brood, whine and cry over the pathetic turns of their life. But if you can find even a little pinch of strength and courage in you. You'll set the loneliness packing their bags, or better, you'll move out and move on! You'll learn to hope, never to lose it again. You'll learn to tone down your emotions, and not be overwhelmed. You'll let go of the breath you've held forever, and take in a fresh current of air within you, flooding your senses with the gift of peace, relief and tranquility.

If you look at any side of a closed room with a fresh outlook, you'll discover the unseen, hidden, windows of opportunity, waiting to be found by you. I like to believe that God created lots of windows for every person. But he kept it hidden. so only the people willing to work hard and be brave would find it. A change, a discovery like this can turn anyone's life. If the people we love and care observe and appreciate it, it's the best gift you would ever receive. And if they don't.. well, with a little hope and a lot of faith, who knows.. Miracles might happen!

Again...

  "Don't judge me by my past, i don't live there anymore."

With an unsaid promise, is an unheard plea to the Universe.

       

Mistakes from the past have their own bitter way of crawling into the skin of the present. Times like these, you can say nothing. Not because you don't know what to say, but because you deserve it. Karma? I don't know. I often wonder why there is no Rule Book to live life peacefully. A definite set of steps leading to a perfectly happy life, like in school days. Then there was a secure bubble, inside which there was happiness, safety, sense of comfort, confidence, perfection, protection. There were rules, difficult then, but looks simple now. Following which made you a perfect student... a perfect child. But then we were always eager to break rules. And now that there are no rules, we are always in search of them.

There must exist a universal rule for happiness, which we give a blind eye to. Attachment is a b***h...! It gives you the experience of the extremes. Total happiness and drowning sorrows. I guess there is a way to eternal happiness, like the Yogis up in the Himalayas. They are not even attached to their own bodies! There is no fear of losing anything, there is no fear of losing anyone... nor lies the fear of death, cos they do not fear losing their own bodies either. Their life revolves around their soul i guess, the one which never dies. I can't even start to imagine the difficulties and hardships they must have gone through before achieving such a state of mind. But it must surely be worth the relief, the peace, the realisation.

Work is worship. There are no fruits without hard work. There is a lot to do in this life. Laziness is our biggest enemy. I am up to fight it. It's simple. You just have to force yourself into lifting your a*s up the chair everytime you need to get going, but don't...!

I certainly don't know much about what i am talking about. I just know that i know the right thing in my head, i am waiting for it to sink to my heart. Cos i think from my heart. And until my heart tells me it's ok, it doesn't reflect in my actions. I say when life gives a second chance, take it. I have taken mine, with all my wishes and prayers attached. With an unsaid promise, is an unheard plea to the Universe to make this work. 

"I'm holding your hand,

but you will never know.

No, not because i need you,

but because i promised to.

It's unsaid, it's unheard,

You will have no clue,

Because.... you don't have to!"